silence

Who knew silence could be borderline impossible?

Have you guys heard the song "Sober" by Pink?

There is a line in that song that says:

"I don't want to be the girl that has to fill the silence,

The quiet scares me because it screams the truth."

It's amazing how much truth is running through my head during the silent periods. Maybe that's why I shy away from prayer, or God time when I'm in the dumps - cause that's when the hard truths come out the loudest. I often wondered why it was always hard to sit in silence…to just clear my head. I think it's hard to clear my head because that's the only time I give the 'smart' side a chance to speak up - and it yells every chance it gets to let me know what's up.

I guess one answer is to make sure there aren't quiet times…I'm really good at that. The better solution is to have more quiet times, to allow the truth to come out and empty out of my head. I guess that's really the only time I can be truly silent - when I've already faced all the truth running around up there and have allowed it to come out. Not a fun thing, but better in the end perhaps.

Anyway, not sure where that came from, just in the mood to type nonsense today I guess...

Of course there is also the Billy Joel song that may apply to me more…

"You may be right, I may be crazy."

And so it goes...